Need to Slow Down. Yet I need to pick up.

I am having a hard time focusing and finding quiet time because I have so many thoughts swirling in my head all the time. Craving a vacation. I used to be good at finding retreat and escape within the everyday and I'm having a harder time doing that here. I blame that on the fact that I have yet to find a place like Steeps/Oolong, or other places in Calgary that I liked to retreat to for "thinking" time. (And the fact that I have a flatmate here that's a space hog, but I'm going to try to stop thinking about her, as I don't need her consuming my thought capital as well.) Anyway, I bought some tea the other day. Hopefully that will help.

Mike and I were talking the other day about how happy we are with Sydney. Being an analyst by nature, I couldn't simply place my "happiness" on a scale, so I made this chart the next day:


So overall I am apparently quite happy with life here. Apparently most Australians are http://www.smh.com.au/business/australia-the-worlds-happiest-nation-oecd-20130528-2n87z.html
(note that the article was written AFTER I charted out my own happiness here. Just saying.) And really, that word "happiness" in my chart should possibly be replaced by "content-ness"....arg, not sure at the moment but they do not mean the same thing.

Still seeking out my mission. I still don't know what it is. What have I been doing? Working most of the time, commuting, exploring around and well, enjoying life I guess. I don't think I'm actually becoming a hedon, as it's not simply pleasure that brings me joy, but at the moment it might appear to be so.

But I am still glad to be here, trying something new. Things worked out well :)

Just still not sure what I really truly care about. Still got some exploring to do and hopefully I'l figure it out.